4 Weeks, 3 Days

Current Symptoms: None, really. Except bloating. Which, of course, is making me panic that I'm about to miscarry. I need to chill.

- B

4 Weeks, 2 Days

I found out I was pregnant on Friday, July 14th at three weeks, five days. This is my second pregnancy. I have a son who is just over 2.5-years-old. I'm fairly certain I didn't get a positive pregnancy test with my son until four weeks, three days (not sure what that means, if anything).

As I've settled into the idea of being pregnant over the last five days, I've also realized how terrifying the first trimester can be. Despite never having a miscarriage, I find myself constantly freaking the fuck out that the ache or pain I'm experiencing is the first sign of one. I keep trying to remember what it was like during my first pregnancy, but it's all a blur. I know for sure I had consistent first-trimester spotting, and even an episode of bright-red bleeding around seven weeks (which I definitely thought was a miscarriage). But other than that, I have no idea.

So, this time around, I've decided to track my symptoms. This way if there's a third time, I can refer back to this record and maybe convince myself to chill out.

Today's Symptoms:

• So much bloating. So much farting.
• Dull ache in my way-lower crotch region.
• Tired, but maybe this is because I am drinking about 10% my normal amount of caffeine. Judge away, but I refuse to give that shit up completely.
• Super mild cramping in my upper abdomen (intermittent).
• Lots of peeing, but maybe this is because I've upped my water intake by about 1,000%.

No spotting to report in this pregnancy, yet. My first doctor's appointment is scheduled for August 7th. I'm hoping I'll feel more comfortable about the permanency of this pregnancy once we see the heartbeat. But probably I'll still panic at least 10 times a day.

Until next time,

B